Prompt – What are you afraid of?

For me, there are many things I’ve always been afraid of. There are the obvious things like heights that I was afraid of as a little kid, the dark when it seems scary, and the spiders that lurked in the old house my mom lived in when I was young. Then, there are the more deep fears that have been rooted in me due to the starting that I had. These include abandonment, betrayal, and loss.

Although the more simple fears that I listed are ones that I’ve grown out of, you don’t grow entirely out of fear. As you get older, the fears that follow you in your nightmares become more deep and complicated.

For me, the deeper fear that haunts me the most is abandonment. The reason for this is mainly the fact that when I was 3, my parents divorced. Once this happened, my mother wasn’t around much after moving back out of my grandparent’s house. I lived with them instead of her most of the time until I was 10.

Also, my father had to move 3 hours away when I was five years old because of wanting a job that could support him and he hoped someday I would be there too.

These things have all given me a problem with being over attached to the few people I get very close to. This is seen with my family members, especially my dad that I’ve always been close to, and the people I date. I get closer to my new partner all the time.

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