Poem Rant

I don’t understand
Its all confusing me
Not like I thought it’d be

One day I’m fine
The next its over
I want to take cover

I still am breaking
As I sit here thinking
About fixing or ending

I’m getting mixed signals
We say it’s over
But is that true

We just laid together
Admitted we both feel alone
Was afraid to ask more

Now I sit here wondering
Is it my place
Have I made another mistake

I don’t know whats right
Only how I feel
Its all I know is real.

Even when its ‘over’
He still is safe
And always there

I feel terrible
Telling him my problems
Or overstepping boundaries

I know its unhealthy
Letting him in the middle
But it all hurts

Without him
I feel alone
Have to distract myself

With him
I feel myself again
Even with the pain I feel

I don’t know what to do
What’s right
And what’s not

I only know how I feel
Each day its harder now
But I know its real