Prompt: Compose a conversation about something that keeps you up at night. It can be something you find deeply compelling, irritating, scary, or fascinating. It can be current or something you felt when you were younger. The conversation can be between you and your closest friend, you and your shrink, or you and a family member.

My deepest anxiety has been the same since I was a young child at three years old after the divorce of my parents after a long thought out relationship. My mother wasn’t around me and my siblings much for next few years after the divorce, which has always given me a fear of abandonment.

I always have to remind myself that my partner is not going anywhere even though we’ve been together for almost 4 years. We have talked about marriage and our future together. I want it to stay that way and continue forward.

It has give me anxiety when they’re away from me for long periods of time even though I know where they are and who they’re with. It’s nothing that they’ve done that has caused me to be this way with our relationship. I have had meltdowns about this during vacations in past years that have lead to breakdowns.

I am working on improving this for the future of my relationship.