My deepest anxiety has been the same since I was a young child at three years old after the divorce of my parents after a long thought out relationship. My mother wasn’t around me and my siblings much for next few years after the divorce, which has always given me a fear of abandonment.
I always have to remind myself that my partner is not going anywhere even though we’ve been together for almost 4 years. We have talked about marriage and our future together. I want it to stay that way and continue forward.
It has give me anxiety when they’re away from me for long periods of time even though I know where they are and who they’re with. It’s nothing that they’ve done that has caused me to be this way with our relationship. I have had meltdowns about this during vacations in past years that have lead to breakdowns.
I am working on improving this for the future of my relationship.