I suppose there are many ways to influence a person without really knowing them. Sometimes people meet for a reason and sometimes they just appear with what seems like no reason. Then, there are times when people show up in order to influence a person in a way they didn’t expect through relationships, friendships, or new family relations that didn’t previously exist. The most recent situation I can think of is the new relationship I found myself in. Even though it started last July, it’s still new enough to both of us since we haven’t had any real serious ones before.
When me and him first met, almost 4 years ago now, I thought of him as more of an annoyance than anything else. He was someone who was just in one class with me, but he tried to help me and it confused me. He was trying to get me to stay with someone I was with at the time because he noticed it was bothering me very much, but it didn’t work.
When we finally wound up getting along more, when I saw him back again the next year in another class, I started to analyze how he acted. I didn’t understand why I was doing that much at the time because I was trying to stop that. His eyes told me that either his life had been difficult or he had a sort of wisdom that was definitely ahead of his years.
His reaction to me was what told me the most when I was trying to figure me out. Even though I barely knew the guy and I had never told him anything, he had always seemed to understand something that even I didn’t about myself. It made me concerned and uncomfortable at the time, but he knew I had some kind of issue in the past that drew him to talking to me even though I wasn’t the nicest person at that point.
It’s almost 4 years since the day I met him. We’ve been together now for almost 11 months and it’s something more than I thought it would’ve been. He’s been one of those people that’s helped me get out of a rutt I was in and reminded me of the issues I still need to fix. I’m grateful for that, but I have trouble telling him that sometimes.