Prompt – What’s one thing you wish you could change about yourself?
The first prompt from The DailyPage is “What’s one thing you wish you could change about yourself?” For me, that’s an easy question to answer right now. I want to change my lack of communication abilities. I talk a lot now, but I screw up saying the most important details to those around me and I don’t know how to fix it. It’s cost me friends and family’s respect in the past
Response
I had an original plan
I was going to explain everything
why I made the mistakes I did
So I messaged them
they were willing to talk
then I started rambling
Why do I always start this
It would be easier if I was better
I lost it
I was stuttering
not making any sense
I wanted to make them understand
I’m frustrated with myself
making them impatient
making myself even worse
Every time we’re alone
I want them back
worse then anyone can understand
They think I’m not listening
I am..
I just can’t get a point across
Even more..
I’m losing someone else
due to the same problem
I said something wrong
I didn’t intend to
Why is it always me
I want to communicate
not make people feel worse
It makes sense in my head
why can’t I say it?
My Life Story 
I know someone just like you (based on the way you described yourself in this post). It’s difficult at times to speak to someone when they regularly miscommunicate what they want to say but eventually you see past it. I used to repeat back to the person what they said and explain how that can be offensive – the person would often apologize and correct their behavior. You’re coming from a good place and that’s the most important thing to remember, after that, it’s just a matter of being patient with others and yourself. We all have things we can improve about ourselves – for me it’s overthinking. haha
Im trying to improve. This came from an issue with my ex that I need to tell them we need to cut off this stupid “thing” we’re doing so I can move on to something better.
Sometimes writing out, then editing what you’ve written is a good way to get your thoughts out on paper and to analyze them objectively. Best of luck with your situation! 🙂
Thanks TSP