It’s been a difficult year for me, and all of my family, with the various losses that we’ve all faced. I’ve lost 2/4 of my grandparents this year, my dad has started showing his own age, and my best friend has had many suicidal ideations and attempts in the last several months; it doesn’t need to be said that this has taken it’s toll on me and the deaths on the rest of my respective sides of the family as well.
My grandmother passed away due to complications stemming from her medication that she’s been on as blood thinners and they finally ran out of ways to keep her from clotting too much or bleeding in her stool. The doctors couldn’t balance it any longer and knew they were losing her and suggested hospice which was the decision. She passed away with my grandfather there the whole time the morning hospice was going to move her to their floor; almost everyone had the chance to see her first and she knew she was ready then.
My grandfather, on my dad’s side, was a very stubborn man that lived his life to the fullest. In someone else’s words “He was the king of his world; we were all just living in it.” We weren’t the closest, but I knew he would’ve helped in every way if needed.
My best friend told me in January that she had planned to end her life in July, but her psychiatric team was able to help pull her out of that. That series of notes we exchanged when she had those times were some of the deepest and depressing I’ve ever experienced, but she claims the honesty helped. She’s still one of the strongest people I’ve ever met dealing with the mental health conditions she struggles with.
How is life going for the rest of you? Has life been as crazy for you as it has for me?