Lonely

You know what bothers me?

The ideas people have about me:

my life, my past, who i am.

This is like right now.

 

Everyone thinks I don’t feel;

They think I have no emotions;

What right do most have?

Even ones who claimed to understand..

to know me.

 

It’s not an easy thing:

I know that; taking that time.

 

I do feel;

I especially do now.

I feel lonely; believe it or not.

 

No problem being alone;

I hate feeling like this;

I have no control over myself.

Don’t feel like myself at all..

It makes me afraid.

 

Most of my “friends:” gone.

They ditched me knowingly

or not; I don’t care.

It’s difficult for me

feeling like this; depressed.

 

Very few have stayed;

Some literally; Some in heart.

Grateful or not, it’s hard;

I despise change.

This is a chapter of change.

 

I know others hate change;

Why am i singled out?

My classmates, My family

think I feel nothing;

This is far from the truth.

 

I don’t show my feelings;

You have to look closer;

I’m sorry about that.

I am how I am.

Accept it

or leave; I’ll let you.

 

Every person has feelings;

Remember this.

It might be evil, friendly, or scared.

Everyone has them;

Don’t single people out;

We all can be alone

or feel lonely.